Second chances

I never believed in second chances, I never believed we can fall in love twice, no not with the same person, but two completely different person physically and mentally both, I never believed that I deserve someone far better than him, no hold on, there's no comparison.
I believed that he's the only perfect guy around and he was everything I needed, but I was just another taken step towards his destination, I was just a rhyme in his poetry, I have always been just "JUST" in his life, and I have always found so many reasons to believe that he is the one for me, and I thought there was an air of love but it was suffocating me to the death, because all the love he gave me was fake, I have been told that he is not a real man but I ignored everyone's opinion because I wanted to experience it, Because we cannot learn things by listening or reading about it, we all should experience everything once in a while, I needed to know how people pretend that they love or care, I needed to experience all the pain and suffer after breakup, then fortunately I realized I do deserve a second chance but first love,
I deserve real man who doesn't want me to satisfy physical needs I want him to want me in a way to feed his soul with all the love I have stored since long.
Yes I long for that kind of guy.
Yes we all deserve second chance but first love.
- Anshika Vivek