Open letter for him

Hi. She chatted me again, saying how frustrated she is, all because of you. She loved you. I know she's serious about you. And if you're not, just have enough respect. Respect her as its the best. Its what it should be right? You both have mistakes. You both ruined your relationship so don't ever blame her ONLY. You should blame yourself also. You always tell her you love her? But why the hell after you broke up you keep on telling the other girl you also love her. Oh cut that crap. Why? Why are you suddenly like this? What happened? I never thought you'd be like this. I knew you. You've been a great friend to me back then. Do I have something to do with this? I like to think this is because of peer pressure but hell, your friends still have respect. A girl needs to be respected. Well, we had quite a past and are you still bitter? Okay, fine. I'll admit it. I hurt you. But, can you hear my version of the story? You always knew yours but please do hear me. Your innocence? I took it away. You were so damn innocent, liking someone from afar. Thinking that she wouldn't ever like you, because you think you're not good enough for her. But, I was so positive. I'm purely innocent and ignorent that time. Can you blame me? I'm young, younger than all of you. You befriended me, thinking I need someone to hold on to. I'm near giving up. My friend lied to me. I don't consider anyone in that four corners a best friend, but her. But then, she betrayed me. You noticed it. That's why you came near me. You befriended me. You got close to me. You just entered trouble. Because of me, you lost your time for her. You should be out there, making efforts for her, so that she could like you back. But then, you're always with me. Your friend liked her too, and your girl might like him soon. But, I know, she likes you! She's jealous of me. I don't know what to do. You became my shoulder to cry on, my older brother I never had, my best friend, the one I could lean on. I wanted to be selfish. But then, our classmated were furious. They told me that I should go away. That I should give way because you promised her something. You promised her that you will be by her side and you will leave. I pushed you. I told you I don't need you. I also have friends, not many, but still. I pushed you away, but you told me you will be by her side and be with me also. I agreed, because I am selfish. But, you still lose your time for her. You keep on going to me. You broke your promise. And then, everything's chaotic. Your friendship with your friend ended. Your girl doesn't want you. My friend came back to me and I'm loosing time for you. But then, you didn't left me, so I told you I'll never leave you. I did everything so that things could be normal. You told me you don't like her anymore. I don't believed you. I doubted you. But then, you proved me you don't really like her. I know she likes you and I'm sad that there's your friend on her side, and not you. I think they are somewhat developing their feelings for each other and you didn't even care. Even for the friendship. But I pushed you. You were bitter but I don't like it. You should be happy. I told you comforting words. I did everything so that you could gain confidence. You never had and I would like you to have it. I told you not to be bitter but better. I told you should be friends. And you obeyed. Finally, you're not bitter. Finally, you don't tell something ill about her. And then witg your friend. I told you you should be friends with him again. That you needed it. Before me, he was your best buddy. And, you obeyed me. Everything's okay. But then, you told me you like me. DAMN. That was it. I never liked you. I don't like you. Maybe yes, but as a friend. I don't want to hurt you. It spreaded because I talked to her so that you two would also be okay. I want to hide it. Its awkward. And I could hear some bad comments. But, its inevitable. The whole room knew about that. You like me. They kept on asking me. But, like I always told you, I don't feel something for you. You were just my friend. You knew me for that short time. You handled me well. Through my worst, my best, and even in my PMS period. You cared for me more than anyone else. You showed me pure and innocent love. You always tell me you like me but I always reply with "you know who I like". Yes, I like someone. And he's close to you so you keep on bashing him. You keep on saying ill about him. You always make sure I'm by your side. Our classmates told me I'm the worst. I'm a traitor. That I shouldn't be the one you like. That it should be her. It shouldn't be me. I lost control. I was innocent, young and ignorant. You know that, that's why you always protect me. I pushed you away due to frustration. You didn't obeyed me. I pushed you again. You didn't go away. I pushed you away. You don't want. I pushed you a hundred times but you won't let me. But then, I told you the most heartbreaking thing you'll hear from a girl you like, "I don't like you. I won't ever like you. You never had a chance on me.". You went away. You avoided me for months. But I missed you. I approached you saying how I miss you, as a friend. But, I think you misunderstood. I'm not dense, I know you still like me, so I pushed you to our friend. You then said you like her so I am happy. But when someone confessed to me he like me, you suddenly went to me, protecting me from possible suitors. But, I pushed you away. I spreaded the news I like someone. And then you, became like this. You were never the same. The confidence I told you to make? Its now overflowing. Making girls cry. You made my friend cried pails. I will never forgive you for that. You became an assgole I never thought you would be. You know what? I miss you. I miss the old you. I never thought that the young guy who used to be so sweet, so kind and could sacrifice a lot for me will turn to an asshole like you. I am so disappointed. But, somewhat, I blame myself. Do I have something to do with this? I hope I don't. I am the first girl your famiky knew. And I think, I'm the first girl who ruined you. But, I hope I'm not the girl who made you like that. I just hope you'll find the right one who could make you better. Better than what I made you before, but then, I hope she'll not ruin you, the way I did. She cried to me. But, I can't do anything. I can't talk to you anymore. I can't tell you to do this or that because J have no rights! Because we're not the same. You are not the same. You are not the same guy I knew. I'm sorry, but you should also be sorry. For now, goodbye. I wish the best for you.

I told her our story but I didn't tell your name. She told me I should talk to you. But then, I asked her, if she's on my place, what would she do. She told me she'll just leave you behind. And, I think that's the best. So yes, goodbye. I'll let you with that. I just hope you'll be moved. I hope that somebody would be there for you, to change you for the better and keep you that way.

You are a knight in shining armor. You saved me for you thought I was your damsel in distress. But, I'm sorry I'm a queen, waiting for my king.

Goodbye, Knight.