Mann ki awaaz

From past few days I am going thru some hard things. I am trying to come out from all this. So, yesterday I got "Mann ki awaaz" saying to me Anki come on it's been high time you are avoiding yourself n giving more importance to others who don't even care for you. Come on, buck up! Start thinking bout yourself. U shud work on yourself, do some workout, read some books, increase your knowledge, look good, think good, work on your weakness, stay focused blah blah blah!! I answered to my 'mann' yes you r correct instead of watching Tv and thinking all the time bout fucking peoples and their bitchy mouth. I shud only think bout me. I shud work on myself and shud become a better person physically n mentally.
Then, me n my 'mann' planned that after taking shower I'll read something good will go through my TESOL stuffs n will work on building up my vocab..After taking shower!!!!! I plugged in the Tv, took the remote and sat on the couch and watched a movie (all of sudden "mann ki awaaz" ne pucha kya tum ye krne waali thi kya humne ye plan kiya tha) n I answered plz ye movie dekh lu phr pakka I'll read a book or take out my study material. I wasted 2-3 hrs watching a movie.