Learning from the past

Today, I wanna share my story here.

A few months ago, I have a boyfriend. He is an Actor. His age is 22.

He said he loves me, and he wanna marry me. He came to my house and introduce himself to my mother.

So, i asked him about his family. But he said to me that its too soon to talk about it. I think he won't talk about it yet, its his privacy or something, so i just wait for it.

Our relationship is run almost 2 months.
But he still didn't want to talk about his family, I feel something strange. But I won't be mad about it, I'll take it slow even if there's a strange feeling.

Another day, someone texted me.
She ask me about my relationship with ny boyfriend. And I remembered, my boyfriend tell me to not share our relationship to anyone, and I promised him about it.
So, I tell her I don't understand what shes talking about.

She keep texting me and told me that my boyfriend already married and having one daughter.

I'M SHOCKED!

I asked him about it, and he swear to me that its not true. Then I asked him about his family, and finally he take me to met his family.

That afternoon, I came to a hospital at tebet. His mother was diagnosed lung cancer. I came and introduced myself to his family. And it seems like I'm the first girlfriend of him that he introduced to his family. I feel glad that his mother said that too. So i think the girl who texted me was wrong and I have to trust my boyfriend.

And then when I'm arrived at home, that girl texted me again and send me a lot of photos to prove what she's talking about.
I'm so scared.

Lately, my boyfriend seems so busy. He told me that he will come and take me to dinner outside but its canceled 3 times.

That girl always texted me every day.

Day by day, my boyfriend won't reply my text, then he's not answering my calls.

I think she's right.

I asked that girl, who is she???

Me: who are you? Why did you always text me about him??

Her: I'm his wife! He is my husband. Because of you, he won't came home! He just wanna sex with me if he is home. He never stay! I know you're the girl, you always called him, and he never answer you its because he's with me!!! I've sent you lotta photos, here some voice notes to prove it......

Her: sent a voice notes

Its his voice and he talk to a baby, which is they're baby!!!

The next day, he blocked me.
And I started to ask myself, whats my fault? Then I realized.. He just get back to his family.

I tell to his wife all the real things, what is really going on, and I apologize for what I've done. Even that's not my fault but i know that hurts her so much. I admit all the lies he gave her and then I tell her that I wish the best for her marriage, and her daughter.

My mom and my aunt cried when they know about it, but I cannot cry anymore. The hurts in my heart is too much, and i could just pray each day to protect my broken heart and fix it for a good one that will come.