DEAR ZINDAGI

Dear Zindagi..
Lets have a mutual Talk & a Mutual Break..
Someday I really wanna say, "Like.. please have a Sunday "
Life,Can't you take a break or go for a holiday..
Can't you just leave me alone for sometime,
May be When you'll be back from your holiday,we will have some better time together,
we might start loving each other more..
But For Now I want a day paused for no reason..
That time i will just live for my own.. I will not talk to anyone, i will not do anything, neither i will dressed up well nor i will comb,i will not be thinking of pros and cons of any situation ,i won't be getting worried for next moment.. I literally want a pause!!
Just to have a recap of my journey till date..
I wanna feel the dead Life in me, I want to feel myself.. I want to know what adjactly happened and what I am actually going through.. and even how should I respond to each surprises you have been giving me..
I want to reach my shore.. Literally Tired of Drowning for too long !!
I want to know a proper response to carry as a mask , I will ask myself where i am going & where i want to go.. And what i clearly want from you.. Because honestly everything seems so clueless. Everything is a puzzle i know,but what if i can't find the pieces to solve it further!!
So please give me sometime.. Let me make endless mistakes.. Let me be myself because it is better to act awkward than Faking a perfection.
Take a break LIFE.. I will meet you again,
Today i am not strong enough to face you dear..
And when i will meet u the next time.. I promise i won't disappoint you, & we'll rock this event of life together :)
Today I am not able to step with you in our journey..
I am always being left behind & couldn't match your speed.
All I can see is your shadow beside me.. M scared!!
But its ok to be scared..
Being scared means you're about to do something really brave,right?
And even the courage is all around me i know, but i had to collect all my courage scattered in parts..
I have to let go of life i planned,so that i could accept the surprises you have already planned for me,
I have to let some people go as everyone who has been in my life & were meant to be in my journey were not all meant to stay till the End !
When you are dreaming with broken heart,Getting up is the hardest part,
And i want to do it alone..on my own !!
I know Its Insane..
Deep down I'm still every confused about you..which i had to overcome.
But You are a Gift..★
The best thing to hold onto in life is each other..
I love the way you hold me everytime But one day i will hold you from back and shall embrace you♡
I want to hug you so tight that we fall for each other even more..
And i promise i will join you "My LIFE" on your crazy ride✩
May That one Day comes soon..
May I could Live all days of my life alive ♡
And Then i will began to bawl..
★ " L♡VE YOU ZINDAGI "★